Decision Made

Deciding whether to do an at-home insemination this month or take this month off to get ready for IUI was difficult.  I knew that no matter what I decided, I would feel like I had done the wrong the thing.  At the last minute, I felt sort of panicked since it was getting down to the wire with ordering a vial or not, so I sort of panicked and just ordered a vial.  So, decision made:  I will do an at-home insemination this month.  Just as I predicted, I am totally regretting this decision.  I am not optimistic about home insemination, I am stressed about timing, I feel like I'm throwing money at my uterus, and will now have to wait even longer to move to IUI.  However, I know that if I had taken this month off, I would have been agonizing around ovulation time and I can guarantee that this month would have been one where all my fertility signals lined up perfectly if I had decided to take the month off!  So, it was basically a lose-lose situation.  I am doing a few things differently this month:  I have stopped taking a B6 supplement after having a lot of weirdness with my cycle since I started taking it.  I am doing acupuncture.  I am taking a pro-biotic supplement (again, I have done this in the past) at the recommendation of my acupuncturist.  I ordered the vial on CD1, so it really will get here on CD11.  I don't really know what to do differently with the timing.  It feels sort of out of my hands and up to the OPK.  I am also *hopefully* getting blood work this month to look at my hormone levels.  I won't have that done by the time I do the insemination, but it may help inform my decision about how to proceed next month.  Also, the donor who I am using right now will be sold out soon.  I kind of wanted to give him one more chance before I move on to another.  I mean, he does have a PhD.  So, while I don't feel great about this, I guess all I can do now is just have faith, right?